Contentment: When the Storm Passes

A few days ago I stuck-foot-in-mouth. Actually, that’s too kind. I lost it and I wasn’t very nice. No, actually I was mean and ugly and I yelled and said things I could cut my tongue out for! I was tired and in pain – That is not an excuse, just part of the circumstances that led to my horrid behavior.

I’m solid proof that no matter your age or circumstance you can throw an ugly fit. So, empty nesters and middle aged divas, retirees, grandmas and pas – this is for you too. I know, you thought when you read the first paragraph that this was for teenagers. Wrong, wrong, wrong.

I lay awake in the middle of the night praying to the Lord and wondering how to make things right and I can’t. Only God can make all things right. He can turn a pathetic situation into a joyous celebration. He can bring restoration. He can renew my tongue. He forgives because He loves.

He will again have compassion on us; He will tread our iniquities under foot. Yes, You will cast all their sins Into the depths of the sea. Micah 7:19

I lashed out at someone I love more than life itself. Why do people do stupid things like that? Why do we hurt those we love the most? And where does contentment fall into this mess because my contented heart isn’t? My heart is in turmoil. I feel like my soul is being tossed around in a raging storm.

I feel stupid and I need to totally forgive myself as the Lord has forgiven me. Holding on to the sting of asinine behavior makes me realize just how much I need Him, my Savior, in my life and that there is no contentment without Him.

It also reminds me of how far I need to go before I learn to be content in all things, in all circumstances . Even when tired. Even when in pain. It also reminds me that biting your tongue can be a good thing at times.

You shot high in the sky, then the bottom dropped out; your hearts were stuck in your throats. You were spun like a top, you reeled like a drunk, you didn’t know which end was up. Then you called out to God in your desperate condition;  he got you out in the nick of time. He quieted the wind down to a whisper,  put a muzzle on all the big waves. And you were so glad when the storm died down,  and he led you safely back to harbor. So thank God for his marvelous love,  for his miracle mercy to the children he loves. Psalm 107: 24-31

Contentment in the inwards parts doesn’t mean there aren’t going to be some storms to battle along the way. A person can live a life of spiritual contentment, serenity and tranquility only with the Lord at the helm.

I am thankful and grateful that the person lovingly forgave me and I pray that the Good Lord erase the horrid memory from their mind. I am so thankful for a loving and forgiving God.

Oh, and I am giving up unkindness for Lent :)

Have a wonderful day.

Be sure to check out my other post in my Contentment Series :)


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29 thoughts on “Contentment: When the Storm Passes

  1. Oh…I totally understand this. I have a fiery temper at times and my tongue too has become a whip. Yuck.

    I’m grateful that forgiveness was extended and received. I know it’s much harder to forgive yourself in situations like this.

    You are right – contentment is the key.

    All thru Him,

  2. i totally understand how you might have felt. i guess everybody loses control sometimes. this is not all too shocking for me because like you, i also couldn’t seem to forgive myself when i throw an ugly fit. i know God has already forgiven me but i couldn’t forgive me that easily.

  3. Don’t we all? I mean, we try, but if we are content all the time, then perhaps we have died and gone to Heaven instead of still live a mortal life here on Earth!
    Thank you for stopping by my blog. Jerusalem is a must go. It’s strange yet somehow felt familiar, perhaps from Bible reading all these years. Ow, and if you have the time, please read my post about happiness. I think you’ll like it, though it’s not particularly about contentment. ^__^

    Visit me:
    LeeAnne, Style N Season

    • LeeAnne, So true. You’ve given me more to contemplate. And yes, thank you. I look forward to reading your happiness quote. I found myself looking up ticket prices for Israel… Definitely on my bucket list.

      Thanks so much for stopping by :)

  4. Beautiful post and photos — sorry to say I’ve been there too, and it is only His grace that cleanses us of all our sins. Battling the sin nature is a constant struggle, but with the indwelling Holy Spirit, we have the mind of Christ.
    Blessings to you,

    • Daenel, you are so very right. I am working on it. I know the Lord already has forgiven me. Sometimes I think it is the embarrassment that slows me down. It’s like – how did that come out of my mouth! But, I am starting to laugh at my foolish behavior. And I need to not let myself be provoked as Shannon mentioned above.

  5. Thank you for your honesty in sharing today. I will pray for you to feel better about the situation and to feel God’s love with you as you go about your day.


    • Thank you Bethany – that is so kind. It’s been a few days now and I am feeling better but still I must admit, a bit ashamed of myself but I’ve sure learned from the situation and I pray if something similar happens again that I have a little more grace and dignity. Hugs!

  6. Wow – I JUST posted about my need to be and say kind things AND Ash Wednesday and Lent and all. You are absolutely correct – we don’t stop needing to control our tongues and treatment of those we love tjust because we’ve reached the “wise” period of middle age. Wisdom is a constant process. Forgiveness is a constant need. And I have another post in line about confrontation. Hmmmmm – do you think it’s something I feel the need to work on. Am I having a hard time forgiving myself? Loved reading what you had to say here about the subject. Good to know I’m not alone.

  7. Jesus lost His temper. I think you were provoked. You don’t fly off the handle unless provoked. Sometimes being angry isn’t wrong. If we get cruel and hateful, then that’s wrong. But responding when provoked in an angry way isn’t always bad. The money changers needed to feel Jesus’s anger. He never apologized for it. There’s usually more behind the scenes.

    • Well, I was out and about not at home… Had nothing to do with my hubby or anything like that. I only yell at him once a year ;) – This was a different circumstance. I am not the type who would like to live alone – I’m a more people person but thank you for your kind words. I am happy you like my photos :) They were taken in Oregon and San Francisco.

  8. It always amazes me that God places people in our lives that love us enough to forgive our stupidity….. ;) What a blessing to be shown but a glimpse of God’s love in our awkward moments!
    Thank you for being so open with us and encouraging us through it all.
    He can make all things good….you just proved it.
    All for Him,

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